I have to admit, I have been a little scared of food lately. Recently I found out that there are so many things I cannot eat. Pretty much everything I love is now off limits. And now some of my favorite foods make me sick. And cooking a steak well done actually brings me to tears. Today I barbecued steak and I literally just stared at my husband's perfectly medium-rare steak and tried not to get tears on my well done meat.
And on top of that, we got a new stove and apparently when you buy a new stove they put all of sorts of crazy chemicals that have to be cooked off. And we bought a good brand, it's not like it was some cheap knockoff. So I used the self-cleaning function, like the manual said, to burn off the smell and it stunk up my house! And it worried me. I am still worried actually. I was out of the house the whole time, but I am worried that I somehow smelled too many harmful fumes. Who knew I was such a hippie? Now I am scared to turn on the oven!
So right now I am in a weird place, I still have a desire to cook and eat, but I am suddenly very nervous about most things I am putting in my mouth. Or smell. I have never in my life thought about whether something was cleaned properly (I actually have a soft spot for dive eateries), or cooked thoroughly (in fact my motto has always been the rarer the better). Half the reason I bake so much is to eat the raw dough, or batter! I have been known to literally drink cake batter. Sooooooooo good.
I will get back into blogging, cooking, and eating soon. Hopefully I will start to worry less, a lot less, and find ways to survive these new dietary restrictions.
Keep tasting and have a glass of wine for me!
